Siddhartha Chp.10

Siddhartha finds his son and pushes him away by telling him he needs to do work. His son runs away from his and Siddhartha goes to find him. Young Siddhartha is not very accepting of his father though. "I am fighitng for him, you see, trying to win his heart and hoping to capture it with loveing-kindness and paitnece. To him too the river must speak someday; he too has a calling"(100 Hesse). Young Siddhartha is not happy with his father and is not letting his into his life. They get into another fight and Young Siddhartha steals a boat and money and runs away. "Nonetheless, he countinued to run without stopping, no longer because he wished ued to run without stopping, no longer because he wished to rescue the boy but mearley out of desire, in hope of perhaps seeing him once more. And he ran all the way  to the outskirts of the city"(105). Young Siddhartha does not want to be found. He is sad about the death of his mom and is not listening to anything Siddhartha is telling him. Although Siddhartha understand where his son is coming from he loves his son so much and is having a hard time letting him go.

Buddha

"...The holy Om that meant the perfect of perfection. And the moment the sound Om touched Siddhartha's ear, his slumbering spirit suddenly awake and recognized the foolishness of his actions"(75 hesse).
          Moment of recognition for Siddhartha. The Om relaxes Siddhartha and brings him nack to realize how foolish he has been. I like this quote because it is that moment of awakening for Siddhartha.

" 'You will learn this' said Vasudela 'but not from me. It was the river that taught me to listen, and it will teach you as well. It knows everything, the river, and one can learn anything from it"(89 Hesse).
          I think by being at peace and taking in nature you can learn anything. Well that is what Vasudave is saying. peace and paitenes will help you be capable of taking in and learning anything.

Awakening

"Walking slowly away, Siddhartha realized he was a youth no longer; he had become a man. He realized that something had left him, the way a snake's old skin leave it"(Hesse 33).

"Siddartha raised his eyes and looked about. Asmile filled his face, and a profound sense of awakening from a long dream coursed through him down to his toes, At once he began to walk again, now taking hurried steps like a man who knows what he must do"(Hesse 34).

"From this moment when the world around him melter away and left him as solitar as a star in the sky, from this morning of cold and despondency, Siddhartha emerged, more firmly Self than before, solidified"(Hesse 37).

An awkening moment I have had took place in San Diego. I was playing soccer and when we walked out to the filed I saw the scouts watching the gmaes and looking over the field was the ocean. It was serieal moment. The perfect sceneary and realizing playing college could be an option for me at a top school, made me feel alive and that dreams are actually achievable.

I had an awakening moment just a week ago. I herd my baby cousin, Cashton, was sick in the hospital. I saw a picture of him with tubes in his nose helping him breathe. It turns out that he wasnt that bad and was just having trouble breathing, but was easily taken care of and is ok now. But seeing that picture and not knowing what was going on was awakening moment, and made me think of how precious life really is.

Hikes are a great awakening moment. When your sitting at the top of flagstaff and your looking out at everything, you realize how small you are. When I have that feeling it gives me bliss and I can let go of all my worries.

            In The Metamorphosis Gregor goes through a transformation that figthens his family. It frightens his mother so much she faints. "His mothr-in spite of the presencs of the manager she was standing her with her hair still sticking up on end, still mess from the night-first looked at his father with her hands clasped, then went two step toward Gregor and collapsed right in the middle of her skirts"(Kafka 6). The mom shows more compassion toward Gregor throughout the story, and cares about Gregor more then his father. Gregor's father doesn't show love or care for Gregor at all when he saw Gregor for the first time, he doesnt show love throughout the whole story. "His father clenched his fist with a hostile expression"(Kafka 6). The dad doesnt show a bit of worry about him he just get angered and worried that Gregor wont be able to work. The family as a whole dont show care about Gregor besides his sister.

           

            Gregor's sister is the only one is the family who tries to take care of him and has any true worry about him. Gregor knew how little the family cared and hid under the couch to se if anyone would even notice. His sister did however, and it really worried her when she didnt know wher he was."...he had to be somewhere or other, for he could hardly fly away-sh got such a shock that, without being able to contorl herself, she slammed the door shut once again from the outside. However, as if she was sorry for her behavior, she immedietly opned the door again and walked in on her tiptoes as if she was in the presence of a seriour invaild or a total stanger"(Kafka 10). She got so mad when she didn't know where Gregor was. She loves her brother and cares for him alot, and its shown by the way she takes care of him. She feeds him when there is no one eles is around becasue their parets dont like seeing him and he isnt comfortable around his parents. "In this way Gregor now got his food every day, once in the morning, when his parets ad servent girl were still asleep, and a second tim after the common noon meal, for his paretns were asleep then for a little while, adn the servet girl was sent off by his sister on some errand or other"(11). She only wants him to be comfotable despite the state he is in, and does a good job of taking care of him in that way. Gregor sister loves him and is the only one that makes him feel important.

Journal Entry My Pride

Last year, when i was at Fairview, I was planning on playing soccer, before i  knew i was going to transfer to Monarch. Our club soccer team season had just ended and i wasn't doing any extra training because I thought I was in good enough shape, even though i knew that the Fairview soccer coach was suppose to be crazy, I thought I would be fine. In general when thinking about club vs. high school sports, club is the top skills where you train the hardest, is the most intense. I let my ego with that get in the way of how I should have been preparing for high school season. I thought because of the high status of my club team i would kick high school seasons ass. Nope. The coach was crazy intense, like i herd, and he kicked my ass.

My Writing

             After reviewing my writing I have learned that I have grown a lot over this semester. Towards the begging of the year I wasn't aware of how to form my pieces of writing, and I didn't really know how to use the format. The first few journals I wrote at the beginning of the semester didn't have an order to my sentences. Everything was just random and i didn't fallow the format. I still struggle with fallowing the format but it really does help improve the writing and I am learning how to use it as I go on. Later in the semester though, I had a purpose for what i was saying and i tried my best to fallow the format. I really struggled with creativity, and adding details to my journals, but the more we have wrote the better I've gotten in these areas.
            I can really improve on making my writing more interesting and making more scene  My introductions and conclusions really need improvement  "I had soccer this week and it was awful." The introduction to my first journal was not interesting and doesn't pull the reader in to read more. In my early journals i didn't really conclude my paragraphs I just stopped writing  I also need to improve my analysis on the quotes I use in my pieces of writing. Connecting my ideas are also a weak spot for me, I think I just need to take more time and really think about my ideas and try harder to connect them. I have a problem with saying what I am thinking and how to word my ideas. It is always hard to write out what I'm thinking for some reason.
           There are so many different things that inspire me to write. Situations I'm going through or have gone through are what i usually write about. It helps me connect with stories or other pieces of writing, if I try and connect something in my life with what I'm reading that inspires me and helps me write my own stories. I connect with people, people inspire me to write. Reading inspires me to write. I like getting new ideas on how to write my journals and how to write them by reading other pieces of writing  Music is really helpful when I'm writing as well. Songs tell a story, and honestly lyrics sometimes helps me word my thoughts.

Writing is a way to express yourself, everyone has there own style.